Evil&Corrupt asked:


Okay, this is going to make me seem like a monster but truly I’m not. I just want to be honest so I can get the best help I can. I am 28 years old and I’ve been on methadone for 8 years for a heroin addiction. I can honestly say that when I started taking methadone I never picked heroin up again. That is truly a feat itself. Although, I finally got over any desire to use hard drugs again and the methadone truly saved me from that lifestyle I am currently (and for the last 8 years) dependent on methadone. I know that taking methadone while pregnant wont cause any real problems so I’ve made my peace with that. When I started on methadone the addictionoligist/shrink put me on 1.5 mgs of xanax for all the major panic attacks and fears of dying. I’ve taken the same amount of xanax for 8 years daily until just recently I needed more and got moved up to 2.5mgs a day. I also have taken trazodone the entire 8 years at a dosage of 100 mgs a night until recently I was prescribed more now I take 200-300 mgs a night. If you’re wondering why the all of a sudden need for the increaseses and ask me about detox or rehab I will tell you so you don’t think my doctor is crazy for upping my meds (all of them). I went into a detox/rehab program because I finally wanted to be free of methadone but what they didn’t tell me was that the more methadone you’ve had in your body over the years builds up in your bones and having an 8 year xanax mixture is the hardest thing to get off of all the drugs known.Methadone has a 30-45 day half life but no one told me that.I assumed it was like any opiate. Anyway, they assured me and my family it could be done in 14 days which is just stupid since it would take 30 days minimum to leave my system on top of the benzos. They said what ever we wanted to hear to get our $25,000. After 17 days in detox I thought i was going to die but they moved me to the treatment side where you get no meds at all.I left after 2 days there. I started taking a lot of different pills to ease the withdrawals but in the end went back home and back to the clinic and got put back on methadone, xanax, trazadone, and clonidine and got my meds increased because of how unstable medically and mentally I was. My doc is a good doc but since I’m probably about 5 weeks I haven’t told him I’m pregnant yet.I haven;t gotten a test yet but I’ve had 4 miscarriages over the last 2 years that I know what pregnancies feel like and I know how my body reacts. Here’s the true problem, I was put back on all these meds about 4 weeks ago and it’s selfish of me to say this but I need these medications especially with how unstable my body and mind are since the detox. I am not a monster. I don’t want to hurt my baby but I can’t help but think me having constant panic attacks to the point where I can’t leave the house and sometimes can’t even speak to people I know and love much less strangers. Not to mention I can’t sleep through the night without the trazodone and xanax. I don’t want to hurt the baby by taking these meds but I don’t want to hurt it by not taking them because an unstable mother can hurt her fetus much less the withdrawals that will most likely hurt or even kill it. And here’s the monster in me…I don’t want to tell my doc I’m pregnant because he will just confirm it with a test right there and take away all the meds that keep me stable. I can hardly keep my anxiety in check with the meds when I wasn’t pregnant but now it’s unbearable and my hands shake and the panic is even more out of control with the hormonal changes. I just don’t want to be taken off my meds and have him start messing around with trying new ones especially now. Trust me I didn’t plan this it just happened and only once which is all it takes. So I’m in quite the predicament. So if anyone out there has any experience with xanax daily and or trazodone while pregnant let me know. I’ve read all about different opinions on the net so I’d just like some experiences and advice if possible other than the obvious answer of go see your doctor. Oh and is lower back pain common? I just thought I’d throw that out there too. I also apologize if it seemed like I rambled but I just wanted everyone to know the facts and the truth. So thank you for your time in reading it.
I also have read infor about how xanax is so dangerous for the fetus in the first trimester which scares me since I’m almost 6 weeks.I’ve read it causes serious congenital defect and premature birthwieght and delivery being on of the least.They talk of deformaties in the physical and in the forming of organs.Cleft lips ,hypothermia,maybe brain damage&like i said congetial abnormalities.I couldn’t live knowing I’d done that to my child and I feel like since the hormonal changes I’m about to snap.The anxiety is more than I can handle.I live with my grams and we are as close as best friends I tell her everything but I could never explain how this happened since the circamstance of the conseption was shameful in act(at least to her,she supports me$)I am would tighter than ever&I’m hiding from her&every1&jump when I hear noises.If I thought I had bad anxiety b4 Im losing it now-hormones on top of the secret &stress.I’ve never had so much anxiety& thing is that nothing is trigering it.Hrmone
My normal debilitating anxiety on top of hormones that make preg. women have anxiety anyway is me times a million.The meds aren’t enough and aren’t working now that my body is changing.I never considered myself insane b4 but now with these changes my anxiety and fear has turned in2 agoraphobia and paranoia and gram’s will notice very soon that somethings wrong,cant keep hiding from herbut can’t seem to talk without hyperventilating and me getin sick&weak on top.It’s really bad.My bf is in a rehab so Im alone.Can’t make the anxiety go away or calm it down.Pregnancy makes your normal meds ineffective bc of the blood&eating for 2.It would probably take a tripple dose of what im taking to feel normal&thats unacceptable for the baby.Grams doesn’t understand why I won’t leave the house to get a job or why im so isolated.She will soon see me have a freakout or notice how ill I am.I stay in the bathroom for hours with uncontrolable crying(bet she thinks im doing drugs)and i shake costantly.
since my grams pays for my meds she is in every apt. with my doc &if my meds get changed she will want to know why&if they increse the methadone she will refuse&think it a ploy for them to keep me on it longer.Im tapering down now which is a major nono while pregnant but she doesnt know&she figures if she’s paying she makes the rules.I can’t take it all at once&that might result in me being homeless without a penny or friends 2 go 2 especially when she finds out that the olny time I could have cocieved was when i met my bf when he got a pass to go to the hospital for asprin.Let’s put it this way,I did it for him more than me&let’s just say he didn’t have a hosp.room.I will have to tell her how it happened bc his pass was so short&no way of goin anywhere but the hosp.The details will shame her&she will be disgusted with me&think me gross.I will have nowhere to turn then.She thinks im just being lazy She don’t realize I am sick&this is new all really hard on my body&mind.Im not lazy
since my grams pays for my meds she is in every apt. with my doc &if my meds get changed she will want to know why&if they increse the methadone she will refuse&think it a ploy for them to keep me on it longer.Im tapering down now which is a major nono while pregnant but she doesnt know&she figures if she’s paying she makes the rules.I can’t take it all at once&that might result in me being homeless without a penny or friends 2 go 2 especially when she finds out that the olny time I could have cocieved was when i met my bf when he got a pass to go to the hospital for asprin.Let’s put it this way,I did it for him more than me&let’s just say he didn’t have a hosp.room.I will have to tell her how it happened bc his pass was so short&no way of goin anywhere but the hosp.The details will shame her&she will be disgusted with me&think me gross.I will have nowhere to turn then.She thinks im just being lazy She don’t realize I am sick&this is new all really hard on my body&mind.Im not lazy

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DynoDiKk asked:


Methadone and Harmd. Is Harmd doing more harm?
I am here to write my opinion on HARMD. This means; “Helping America Reduce Methadone Deaths”.
Although their intentions might be good or in their own mind considered good. H.A.R.M.D. is disseminating lies about the drug Methadone. A co-founder of this organzition experienced a horrible tragedy in regards to the admintration of this drug in a professional medical setting.

As the story goes this individuals loved one was addicted to Oxycodone. Upon seeking medical help for this, the Medical facilty gave this person Methadone in conjunction with a benzodiazepiene and this person tragically died as a result of this combination. A dangerous combination.

Harmd will tell you absolutely nothing positive about the drug Methadone. Instead of calling it Helping America reduce Methadone Deaths……… They should have called it; “Trying to ban Methadone in America”. That seems to me like their goal. And the fact is Methadone save lifes. It makes people that live in chronic pain functioning human beings again. It makes addicts live normal lives. Methadone is not a replacement for Heroin! IN other word’s Methadone clinics are there to help these people live normal lives.

Harmd’s claims on their video’s on U-tube openly admit that the onset of the rush of the drug is slow; (Thus sticking their foot in their mouth indicating the drug is used to obtain a high/hence obtaining it for illicit reasons)so the person takes more to get high and doesn’t realize a toxic level is increasing in them. METHADONE IS not to be USED to get HIGH or a rush! It is so easy to point the finger at a thing than a person. Methadone does not have a brain, it cannot control how and who or why a person uses it.

No one is going to want to admit their son died in a bathroom and was found with a syringe full of cocaine in his arm are they? No one would want to admit their son was a IV cocaine addict. But they can say Methadone killed their kid? Why? Because Methadone is FDA approved? Oxycontins ruined all of this. Oxycontins made regular pill users into full blown junkies. That is how Methadone just became a issue. Funny we never heard about Methadone deaths prior to 1998.

Number one; Methadone is a powerful synthetic opiate narcotic! The only people that have business with this drug are addicts that are going to addiction treatment or people that live in chronic pain in pain management. Methadone is not used to take if you have trouble sleeping! It is not used for a headache and it is not used as a spice in making meatloaf! Methadone must be used only by people that are qualified to take it. HARMD states it stays in your system a long time and or but it’s pain relief is only 4 to 6 hours.

THIS IS FALSE! Methadone’s analgesia threshold is 8 or more hours! Methadone has a 24 to 36 hour half life. This indicates that if you consume 10mg’s. Exactly 24 hours later you will have 5mg’s dormant in you. Thus if you want to maintain this 10mg a day dose, you take 10mg initially and than every day than and there out you take 5 mg’s! So on and so fourth. Again a person that is not prescribed Methadone for pain or does not get it in an addiction treatment scenario HAS NO BUSINESS WITH IT! Giving this to a non familiar user that is only using it for a stupid reason is like giving a blind person glass in their dinner. JUst say no to drugs!

True facts on Methadone:

Methadone is the most sctrunized drug on the planet. No drug , not one in the history of the world has gone under the scrutiny that Methadone has. The drug has been in use since perhaps the mid 60’s and this drug has a proven tried and true list of positive virtues in regards to long term effects on the body and almost has a explanation and theory on every dosaging protocol that has ever existed on the planet. I don’t believe there is a single case of anyone being allergic to Methadone.

All opiates have long term effects on the body. There is nothing but overwhelming evidence that indicates that Methadone is the lightest on all the organs compared to any other opiate. It is the long half life which does not give the body time to recover throughout doses is what I believe makes it the harshest in this aspect.

All opiates impede vitamin and mineral absorbtion. Methadone is not excempt from this and because of it’s long duration on visiting the body, mineral and vitamins should be used as a supplement. There is not a single drug on the planet that is as healthy as drinking milk or as healthy as eating a apple a day. Eating a bag of Potato chips everyday may actually be worse for your health. The FDA does not tell you the long term effects of MSG to readily. Or the stuff they put in a Big Mac.

Methadone is the flattest hitting opiate on the planet. In other word’s it maintains a constant blood level throughout a 24 hour period. This is what makes Methadone such a miracle drug for addicts and pain management people. But it is this virtue that HARMD claims it is so dangerous. This is the a paradox of their thinking.

Where conventional opaites hit high and rapidly drop, Methadone does not. Therefore a person that is taking conventional opiates for pain eventually will end up abusing them to chase blood levels to keep an existing happy mood in check. This is a real thing that is going on in the brain and it is not in a person’s head. So instead of taking more medication for pain relief, they are taking more to keep their mood in check and not pain control. This inadvertantly results in tolerence to the drug very quickly and non-delibarate abuse. With Methadone this is almost non-existant. It is a superior pain reliever by this virtue and dosing twice a day is almost always considered effective as compared to 4 times or more a day by a conventional opiate.

It is this aspect of Methadone that also of course makes it a choice for addcition treatment. It keeps the person in check throughout the entire day (Not needing more and more of the opiate) and cancels the so-called mental cravings a opiate addict gets.

Methadone in a pain scenario is also a opiate that keeps opiate induced hypersensitivity down to a low. All pain people in time will experience this and it either can be considered a form of withdrawal as more opiates are administered or break-thru pain. Since Methadone maintains a flat blood level and keeps pain receptors filled constantly, this phenomenon is greatly reduced. There are some claim that Methadone does not create opiate induced hypersnsitivity. I think it does and will but the effects are far less apparent.

Methadone is the simpliest of all opiate molecular structures.

Methadone was developed in Germany (I.G. Farben) under the direction of Herman Goering in mid 40’s as a substitute for morphine. It was never intended at the time to be used in opiate addiction. It just happened that way.

People in pain management that obtain Methadone for pain are readily sterotyped as ex Heroin addicts because of Methdone’s use in addiction centers.

Fact: A 40mg Methadone pill( Wafer) was as large as a quarter. And it is thick as two on the eges and in the middle as thick as three quarters stacked. If someone gave you a pill the size of a quarter and told you it was an aspirin, would you be a little apprehensive about it? It was perhaps one of the largest pain pills ever produced and as a aspirin in this form this would be perhaps be a 4,000 MG aspirin? Just saying.

The size alone of the 40mg pill should have been a deterrant from anyone abusing it. The truth is, you would have difficulty placing the entire thing in your mouth and swallowing it whole. It was also serated into four sections, not half but quarters. Thus indicating a quarter of the pill could be taken, but people that decided to abuse it, and took the entire thing anyways? Knowing it could be broken in fours? 40 Milligrams are no longer made however the 10’s are. The company makes very small 10 mg pills and by eliminating the 40 they should make the 10mg just as large to indicate it looks strong? Who knows. For 10mg’s of Methadone is strong!

Fact: 10mg’s of Methadone is approx. 100 Milligrams of Morphine. Now this varies in IV and other routes of administration how it is metabolized, but for a standard equal it holds primary true. Methadone in a pain scenario prescribed 5mg’s a day for three days, than 10 mg’s a day for three day’s and so on (Until determined the level of pain it is controlling) will never represent a problem with the patient. This patient must be simply monitored to see how they are reacting to the medication as far as fatique, lack of motor coordination, mental awareness for a two week period. The patient decides how they are reacting to the medication. Than they can safely be on the a stable dose of Methadone which is superior in pain control versus anything else.

Methadone should not be mixed with alcohol at all! Methadone should not be mixed with any type of Benzodiazepiene.

Methadone does not induce “Sleep Driving” like Ambien does.

And last HARMD is so quick to indicate that pain patients use Methadone because it is cheap. They say “Cheaper is not always better.” What an crazy statement. I never heard that before. Since when is anything cheap ever better? I think they made it up. Don’t better things cost money? Explain that to me?

BUT! Methadone as bought as a illegal drug on the street is anything but cheap! Not in the least. It is just as expensive as everything else. Again it should never be purchased illegally! That solves that problem. Say no to drugs.The only way to obtain it cheap is legal. Methadone treatment in clinic’s is EXPENSIVE not CHEAP either. So I have no idea what they are talking about. So people that used it, abused it and died, did not pay pennies for their death but high dollar like everything else. And it is cheap. So what? I am a pain person that didn’t have insurance, that was a blessing. HARMD could care less about that! Stating that Methadone is cheap as bought from a genuine prescription was a dumb thing to put in their arsenal. So what? It again is not cheap on the street or from the drug dealer on the corner.

What are my sources? I am a extensive researcher on opiates. I weaned off of 200mg’s of Methadone a day as precribed for pain in 3 months and had them in my hand. I been researching opiates for 10 years and was a legally prescribed user of the,Give me any question on any opiate. I will give you an answer. Not a lie.

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amaya ls asked:


My cousin, who lives with us, has gotten herself into bad company. She’s now a heroin addict and we want to get her treated. We want to know more about buprenorphine, as we have heard that this is a more appealing treatment than methadone is. How can we find drug rehabs that are administering buprenorphine treatments to patients?

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Due April 29th with a boy! asked:


If we get hiccups from breathing the wrong way:

While many cases develop spontaneously, hiccups are known to be triggered by specific events such as lack of water, eating too fast, being hungry for awhile, taking a cold drink while eating a hot meal, burping, eating very hot or spicy food, laughing vigorously, coughing, drinking alcoholic beverages in excess, crying out loud (sobbing causes air to enter the stomach), some smoking situations where abnormal inhalation can occur (in tobacco or other smoke like cannabis, perhaps triggered by precursors to coughing), electrolyte imbalance, talking too long, clearing the throat, by some of the stronger opiate/opioid painkillers such as heroin, morphine, methadone, and oxycodone, or from lack of vitamins.”

how can a baby in the womb get hiccups if they aren’t breathing yet? just curious?

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tough cookie asked:


I am 21, he’s 29. I started seeing him a month and a half ago. He has an “ex” (who’s 44) who is a recovering heroin addict and will probably be going to the methadone clinic for the rest of her life. Problem is, he went home to her 2nite and every nite when I first started seeing him. He swears he does not love her, but he left me today ( he was staying with me for the past 2 weeks) after calling me names nad being extremely verbally abusive. I dropped him off, he called me and all I heard was her in the background. I talked to her once before and she said he had been beating her for the past ten yrs. I am starting to believe this because for the past week he has been perpetually and viciously jealous of EVERYONE I talk to: my doctor is my boyfriend my friends, etc etc, Therefore I am called a whore from those allegations but he went back to his ex tonight. Not to mention I found a text on his phone from her a week ago to him saying he was using me and “not to fuck her over”
he denied he was using me
he said he just told her that to shut her up.
I don’t know what to do. It seems obvious to everyone else, but i am 21 years old alone and i have no family and just one fatal weakness: I am scared to death to be alone.

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